Posts Tagged ‘boys’

Tired of waiting, tired of waiting for youuuuuuuuuuuuu. Sorry…old song from the ’60s that I LOVE! But I am tired. I’m EXHAUSTED. SO I was supposed to wake up at 5:30 this morning, but my alarm clock forgot to go off or something. So I roll out of bed at 6:30, shove down my breakfast (an Odwalla bar–love them), and grab my sweatshirt just in time for Becky to pick me up in time to get to my singing group!

I practically slept through the day (though we got chocolates in History 😀 ), and I had to walk home (2 miles) in FLIP FLOPS. I have huge blisters between my toes. And to top it off, on friday I have to wear flip-flops because of the competition. This SUCKS.

Gym, actually, wasn’t that bad though. Sure, I sucked at the game (Racket Whackit/Smackit/Crackit…or whatever), but Oberon transfered to our team! I was drudging to the outfield with my friends (he was behind us) and I was complaining–as usual–about gym class.

Me: Why can’t we just WATCH baseball? I’m fine with that, I just can’t PLAY it!

And then Oberon goes, “Oh yeah, I smell you, Girl!” And I, being the sad person that I am, sniffed the air. He goes, “It’s a term, Lena…but you smell powder fresh, don’t worry”. This is a sure sign, I think! 😀 😀

Well, that was my day. I’m staying in Science during lunch to finish my project 😛 and I have to write like, 5 essays this weekend.

As always,



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Hi there…

Well I have been so freaking PISSED lately. My family is always on my back, but the main problem is my friends. So basically, one of my friends (Lise) invited me to her sleepover with a whole bunch of other friends. We formed a little group thing at the beginning of the year. But the thing is, the group thing worked out for everyone BUT me. I feel farther apart from them than before–not closer. But anyway. Lise invited me to her sleepover, and I don’t think I’m gonna go. I know that sounds b**chy, but I just don’t relate to them anymore. They treat me like I’m a spoilsport, just because I don’t ADORE anything related to sex, drugs, and slacker-ness. They call me a suck-up because I get 100%’s on most of my tests (except in math, but my average is still higher than theirs). I just have nothing in common with them. Sadly, they have a LOT in common with each other, and at the beginning of the year we scheduled all our classes to be together. So now I’m stuck with them. They don’t MEAN to leave me out, they just end up doing it because I find them obnoxious and they find me different from them.

Well, I’ve been hanging out with a really nice group of people, and they are really supportive. I won’t name them all here, but basically they’re a lot like me. One of them is teaching me to knit, and they’re all super creative. I just wish that my old friends (see above ^^) didn’t give me dirty looks whenever I hang out with the nicer people.

And then there’s this whole confidence thing. I take voice, and my voice teacher said that if I didn’t become more confident and less perfectionistic, she couldn’t teach me anymore. So I have to get a triple dose of confidence FAST. It doesn’t work that way, though. I scrutinize myself too much, I’m not optimistic, I have some serious issues with my attitude right now, and I just wish I didn’t care what people think.

But I do.

And then BOYS. Boys hate me, and I don’t know why. I try and try. I’m attractive, and I’m nice (and I’m not bragging), and I’m not really to assertive. I’m 14 years old and I have not once had a relationship with anyone. I feel so out of the loop. I mean, I like…3 guys right now. And as far as I can tell, none of them like me back. Well, one did hug me after the musical was over, because I was crying. And another one did sit with me in science (although he talked to his friend at another table the entire time).

I’m just so confused, bewildered, and angry.

At least I’m going to a private high school–which means I never have to see most of the people I’m bitching about EVER AGAIN!


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Well, I’ve returned from my fab day at school. Lately I’ve been feeling like 1 moment I’m psyched and the next I’m yelling my ass off. Which is why I started this blog…go figure…

Hm. Today was relatively uneventful, aside from ^^ (see above). I made fajitas for dinner…yay!

I have singing tomorrow at 7 AM! Gosh. What will I do?

Boy Civility Count: 3
1–Subject: Homeroom. Notes: Had conversation about coffee.
2–Subject: History. Notes: Had somewhat 1-sided discussion about the rudeness of sitting on someone else’s desk (lol). It was all in good spirit, though. Both parties exchanged laughs.
3–Subject: English. Notes: Had lively conversation about the party in mention’s new band name: SALT (Skill Something Something Something). It was fun I guess…weird though.

Ohhhh wait you don’t know. Here’s my question, taken directly from yahoo answers:

am having MAJOR issues with guys. I can’t seem to carry on a normal conversation with them. They think I’m weird–not unattractive, but unapproachable. I think they might be sort of intimidated (I’m sort of known for being sarcastic to boys). How do I get rid of my reputation?

Well one answer I got was try to be nice to at least 1 boy per day and expand each week. Well…s’working!


So now I must go wash my hair, or it will certainly be atrocious tomorrow!


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